I finally figured out something quite interesting about myself from having been diligently seeking for my peace and place in this world. I don't like receiving compliments, although I need to learn. Much thought went into WHY that might be, and for the longest time, I could not come up with an answer. FINALLY, it hit me today when one of my customers at work kept complimenting me on my hair. I don't trust anyone who compliments me. Somehow I have got it in my head that there is either some sort of ulterior motive to the compliment, (wanting something from me), or that they are complimenting me outwardly while meaning something completely different on the inside. In my "youth" (I'm not THAT old), it was my experience to have been complimented by people only to have them spread rumors or make fun of me after the fact, and if it appeared that a compliment was genuine it usually turned out to be a method of fishing for something. Over the years, I became accustomed to not truly accepting a compliment for what it was, and I even have trouble doing that with my husband.
I guess at this point, it would be good for me to try to look at things a little differently and rather than immediately discounting a kind word as malice, accept it with grace and get on with life.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
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